Week 16 – A Mental Picture of Success

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At first I was a little miffed at myself for not having my blog done yesterday but then something really cool just happened to me a few minutes ago and I am so grateful that I can share it here now because I know that these blogs are for other’s enjoyment but they are also a journal for me to see my progress and look back on this beautiful experience!

Every day for a couple weeks now I have been reading something I put on an index card and put it in with my functional bookmarks.
This is what it says:
I promise to give service in exchange for money that is
-self directed  -relaxed -fun  -some people  -one to one interaction  -helping  -using emotion  -caring -cleaning/organizing  -moving my body  -outside some  -short hours         -awesome pay (at least $25/hour)  -can listen to music or sermons  -wi-fi -mutual respect with employers, customers, clients and myself   -love and laughter -purpose and meaning I always keep my promises,  Love, Angie.  and I dated it December 27, 2017

So I don’t know why but I waited until after the holidays to post any ads and then I waited a little longer until I had my daughter signed up for all her stuff and we were back in the swing of things.  All I did was a post on facebook in a buy and sell group, asking where is the best place to post an ad for housekeeping/ care work and I got several offers but the one lady who commented on the post said to me I have the PERFECT job for you.

Well,  knowing what I know now from the MKE, that definitely got my attention.So she told me it’s caring for an elderly couple, 3-4 hours Monday to Friday, $25/hour!  I was SO EXCITED I started dancing around saying holy crap, it’s working!!

We’re meeting up on Monday to sort out some details but I am so stoked that this has come into my life! What a cool synchronicity and harmonious event!

Speaking of Harmonius, I wanted to share this cool thing with you guys too. So I have a new DMP, and I did a new recording. Same song but new DMP. The song I chose has always made me realize my inner power and the album came into my life when I first got introduced to personal development and was introduced to the concept that I could be what I will to be! A very pivotal time in my life about 7 years ago. Who knew this song would still be my jam all these years later!?

There is a part in my DMP where I talk about visiting New York City and seeing the statue of Liberty, how it will be a celebration of my immigration and give me that triumphant feeling of having made it to my new home…Well, unintentionally I placed that exact part of my DMP alongside the part of the song where the lyrics say:  “focus on the whole of where the torch goes In the tradition of these legendary sports prosAs far as I can see, I’ve made it to the threshold Lord knows I’ve waited for this a lifetime and I’m an icon when I let my light shine”

Torch= Lady Liberty is holding one.Threshold = My upcoming wedding and immigration.Waited for this a lifetime = Well, I’m marrying the love of my life, my daughter has an amazing stepdad, I am gaining a precious stepson, and so many of my other dreams are coming true just as a result of our partnership. Icon/ light shine = Lady Liberty is an icon, especially for new immigrants and her torch is her light shining, as well as everything she is a symbol for.
Once I realized how perfectly everything lined up right there, I got emotional and shed some tears. This is really happening and I am just so excited! I’m going to leave the lyrics to the song right here because they are so good!

There’s something in your heart
And it’s in your eyes
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
You don’t say good luck
You say don’t give up
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
Yeah, and if I’m ever at the crossroads
And start feeling mixed signals like Morse code
My soul starts to grow colder than the North Pole
I try to focus on the whole of where the torch goes
In the tradition of these legendary sports pros
As far as I can see, I’ve made it to the threshold
Lord knows I’ve waited for this a lifetime
And I’m an icon when I let my light shine
Shine bright as an example of a champion
Taking the advantage, never copping out or canceling
Burn like a chariot, learn how to carry it
Maverick, always above and beyond average
Fuel to the flame that I train with and travel with
Something in my eyes says I’m so close to having the prize
I realize I’m supposed to reach for the skies
Never let somebody try to tell you otherwise
There’s something in your heart
And it’s in your eyes
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
You don’t say good luck
You say don’t give up
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
One love, one game, one desire
One flame, one bonfire, let it burn higher
I never show signs of fatigue or turn tired
‘Cause I’m the definition of tragedy turned triumph
It’s David and Goliath; I made it to the eye of the storm
Feeling torn like they fed me to the lions
Before my time starts to wind down like the Mayans
I show ’em how I got the grind down like a science
It sounds like a riot on hush; it’s so quiet
The only thing I hear is my heart–I’m inspired
By the challenge that I find myself standing eye to eye with
Then move like a wise warrior and not be a coward
You can’t escape the history that you are meant to make
That’s why the highest victory is what I’m meant to take
You came to celebrate, I came to celebrate
I hate losing; I refuse to make the same mistake
Oh, the fire, the fire
Oh, there’s something in your heart
(The fire)
There’s something in your heart
(The fire)
There’s something in your heart
And it’s in your eyes
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
You don’t say good luck
You say don’t give up
It’s the fire
Inside you
Let it burn
Oh, the fire
Inside you
The fire
Inside you
The fire
Inside you

Week 15 – The Human Telescope

This weeks material, the 4th scroll and the 15th chapter as a combination and in combo with other things we are doing and have been doing are….. just so profound.
I love to talk, just ask my friends who Marco Polo with me!
And I love to write but I feel like trying to write about how much this week has affected me would somehow take away from its profundity. There are not enough words to describe how awesome this is right now.

All I will say to sum up my week is that I am stretching my potential, keeping all of my promises, even if I slid in late on a couple, I’m without a doubt becoming and also being NOW the best version of me I have ever known.

I have a new DMP with a new ppn. That means I also have a new recording and I’m  totally in love with it! I’m going to do some tweaks on my press release. Maybe keep the old one for the records and then add a new version.

It’s so cool to imagine my future exactly how I want it and then even to have different versions of scenarios come up in my mind, all equally amazing like my own personal “chose your own adventure” story. That’s the power of insight.

It was weird for a few weeks there I was in between DMPs. Part of me didn’t know how soon I would come up with my new one but I finally sat down one day and just started it.
This one is so much more me. My family noticed the difference right away. Unlike the other one, my mom clapped when I read it out loud and she loved it!
I didn’t even realize it but I hadn’t read my old one to my fiance, which is ridiculous because he and I are inseparable, on the phone all the time! I read him my new one and he loved it too! Which is great because, well, a lot of it is going to be his life too! lol

This week has been amazing…just absolutely awesome. I feel like I am coming back down, being more grounded after being in New York, then Vancouver, then the hospital, then holiday hoopla, now, I’m still a little up in the air but it’s coming together so nicely.


Week 14 – Cool Runnings means Peace Be the Journey

Waaaaooww! That was so awesome! I just watched cool runnings a few minutes ago with my folks and I forgot how much fun that movie is!

I didn’t know which movie I was going to watch because I’m actually not a huge movie buff these days.  In fact, I thought I was going to chose one I have never seen but I thought of cool runnings because I used to LOVE that movie when I was a kid!

So I went to netflix and searched for October sky. Not there. Then I searched for Cool runnings because it was next on my list and there it was….

I had no idea how many memories it would bring back and how nostalgic it would make me feel!
John Candy!
I was born in Calgary and although I did not attend the Olympics in ’88 I remember that it was a big deal and my parents went to a few days of events. My brother and I watched on TV from our grandparent’s house, looking for our parents in the crowd at the hockey games.

I certainly noticed the 4 habits of persistence as I watched the boys and their coach persist and break through barriers. Knowing that it was a true story made it that much more triumphant. I laughed, and yes I really did cry!

Those guys persisted in the face of ridicule and every odd against them.

But they had those 4 habits to drive them and hold them up in tough times.

They each had their own special purpose and even if one man’s purpose was not as strong as another’s, the other man’s purpose was strong enough to carry them through.

I remember Mark talking about how he and the Fabulous Davene had many things in their DMPP that were the same but some things that were different and her passion for her purpose overpowered his!

I felt like that was happening in this situation with Darice. He wanted to be an Olympian more than anything. He said he was born to be an Olympian and he wanted it so much he even changed sports to make it happen.
All of them, though, once they decided this is what they were going to do, they went for it with all their hearts and they supported each other like brothers every step of the way.

They only had a short time to train for qualifying, that’s where the POA came in big time!
So they started in Jamaica on little go-cart things….which was comical!
Then, after pulling together (MMA) to raise funds… panhandling, busking, and ultimately one of them selling his car against his father’s wishes, they made their journey to the frigid unforgiving temperatures that is my homeland, Calgary Alberta, Canada.

I must say that the scene where they arrived at the airport was absolutely hilarious! They walked out the door and the one guy walked back inside, opened up his bag, put on every layer of clothing he owned AND put on the duffel bag! Hahaha

So they practiced and trained and built each other up. They knew they were making history and they were so hopeful! (PMA, MMA)

One of my favourite parts that really reminded me of the work that we are doing in the MKMMA was when they were in the bar and one of the European team members was bugging the shyest guy on the Jamaican team, the one who had snuck out of the country unbeknownst to his father who thought he was working in a corporate job he got for him back in Jamaica.

The European guy scared him off and he shrank back like he always had from his father.  He went to the bathroom to sulk about it and then his teammate followed him, to cheer him up.

He said to the shy one: Look in the mirror and tell me what you see.
“I see Junior…” he said with a frown and drooped shoulders. Not looking himself in the face.

“I tell you what I see. I see Pride! Power! And a bad ass mutha who don’t take no crap from nobody!”

So the shy guy looked at himself and said it too… “Pride… power! …And I’m a bad ass mutha who don’t take no crap from nobody!”

He repeated it a few times to himself until he was really feeling it!
It was really neat to watch that. That was the power of PMA and MMA right there!

Another cool thing that reminded me of MKE was when they had a practicing/training montage and they showed them all in the bathtub sitting one behind another just like in the sled and practicing their turns. They knew that course inside and out. They could imagine it, run it through perfectly in their mind’s eye.

I have two more awesome takeaways from the movie. The first is that they recognized that they were different. They had started out their countdown to get into the bobsled in swiss because, well, that’s the first people they ever saw in a real sled on a real track!
But they realized that they had to stay true to themselves so they came up with a Jamaican style song and chant for getting into the sled and as they jumped in they said

“Cool Runnings!”

This was a real treat for me: the day before the big day, the coach asked Darice, what does Cool runnings mean?

He said Cool Runnings means Peace be the Journey.

Week 13 – I am harmonious.

For a while I was meditating on the word harmonious, knowing intellectually that I am a spirit being at my core and therefore, of course, I am harmonious but now more and more I am starting to see the evidence if this all around me… and I love it!

Cool things have started to happen like my partner will call me up with something on his mind and heart and it will line up exactly with what is on my DMP! For a quick example, he called me the other day to tell me about this video he watched which brought his interest in adopting kids back to the forefront of his mind, particularly from moms who were going to have an abortion but decided to adopt out instead.

At that moment in time when he had called me, I was in the middle of a conversation with a friend of mine and she asked me:
” So are you and Josh going to have any more kids?”
to which I replied: “We want to foster and adopt but we don’t know exactly how these kids are going to come into our lives. We have a few ideas but we are open to following God’s leading and wherever the kids are from, we’ll be ready when the time comes.”

He called me minutes after this conversation to tell me about the video he saw.
I left my enormous DMP movie poster in his dining room for a few reasons, one of which was because I knew it would be valuable for him to look at it in the same way it’s valuable for me to look at it! After all, we’ll be doing this life together! My poster is VERY crowded with lots of specific things on it that I will do, be and have.
I said to him: ” Look at the poster, there’s actually a picture of a guy on there in front of an abortion place talking to people, counseling them. Pretty cool hey!”
He said: “Oh yeah, I think I saw that!”

It might not seem very spiritual or harmonious just to read it here but I felt it. I always feel like Josh and I are on the same wavelength but him coming to me at that exact time and wanting to talk about one of our huge goals and purposes in life just made me feel amazing! It is so thrilling when things come up like that and we revisit these subjects which mean so much to us.

Other things have been happening too! Like I have been reading more because it is on my DMP and I am making the time for it! I picked up a book that I have been meaning to read for a long time and it has so many ideas in it that are very reflective of what we have learned so far in the MKMMA and I found another cool book on my mom’s bookshelf which talks about a lot of the concepts we’re learning in MKMMA!


Then we had Christmas and every single gift I received was literally something I was going to buy like a toothbrush or face scrub! I had just opened a brand new toothbrush on the 24th! I guess I’ll save my gifted one for a couple months down the road!

So just little things and big things all around me are happening and linking up. Week 13 has been amazing for that reason! Also, I am very close to finishing up my new DMP which is super exciting for me. I changed one of my PPNS so I’m focusing in on some of the aspects of my DMP around that and withdrawing focus from other things although I really didn’t have to change much on it… if that makes any sense. I just moved my magnifying glass so to speak.

Well, I am a few days late writing this so I have already peeked into week 14. Then I found out I hadn’t pressed the publish button for my last week blog! Oh dear!

It’s the last week of the year. I’m so excited for this beautiful journey I have begun at the exact perfect time because I am harmonious!

Week 12 – The only way to keep from going backward is to keep going forward

This week was a whirlwind for sure!
I traveled back from upstate New York to Vancouver, Canada on Wednesday with my 3-year-old daughter.

Our plan was to spend a week in Vancouver to spend some quality time with my bro, sis in law and niece, as well as visit some other friends before returning home to the Okanagan.

Some things went according to plan and some things not quite!

I loved the webby on Sunday… that mirror work was so awesome! I did it sitting on a bed with a mirror very close to me so I felt like I was talking to a very close friend! It was very neat just all the experiences I had within that 50 minutes! I would like to do that again soon, actually. Even for half an hour, I think it would be so beneficial!

After the webby, the cold I was coming down with started to really accelerate and by that night I really didn’t feel good. The following evening, I took my brother’s advice to go the the ER and I was hospitalized for a couple days for pneumonia! Eew!

But the awesome thing was that I accomplished 6 days on the mental diet, 2 of those were in the hospital!

Also, it gave me the chance to think…

“What are some of the thoughts I have had that have led me to be here in the hospital?”

“Is there some kind of need being met in here that I could have met in a better way by thinking more constructively and closing my mind even tighter to negative thought?”

I sure had a couple of awesome reads of the master keys part 12 and sitting…

I love part 12… It goes very well with part 11, too. I love the progression we are building in this course so much! It also goes great with scroll 3! I really liked the part that says:

“The only way to keep from going backward is to keep going forward.”

How simple yet profound!
Sitting there in my hospital room, I decided that I will change one of my ppns from recognition to true health and I know that it’s right because it doesn’t require that I change my DMP very much at all because true health is already a focus of my definite purpose!

So this week was very developmental and transitional for me so for that I am very grateful!

Week 11 – Faith is the substance of things hoped for. 

Wow this week has been crazy and wonderful!

At a time when in the past I’ve been pretty bummed about leaving my boys, I’m feeling great instead!

Also,  I’ve gone 2 days again on my mental diet!  And that doesn’t seem like a lot but I am victorious because I know that even though I have had many restarts, I’m still the observer of my thoughts and I’ve gone most of an entire day many times now without a negative thought… Or without holding one for more than a few seconds and that is remarkable!

This week and last in scroll 3, I’ve come to complete honesty with myself that I’ve not been doing what I need to be in my business.

I’m using my focus on the world within as my excuse.

I had some calls scheduled with my friend and mentor today and it was really one of the most valuable and genuine conversations I’ve had with a friend in a long time! This woman also happens to be in the master keys with us and so she helped me IMMEASURABLY with my DMP.

I love it when friends can be totally honest and real.  I think being able to give and receive constructive insight and feedback is a sign of maturity and true care for someone.

It helps that she knows me,  knows about my life,  we share the same faith,  and we’re in the same mlm.  Also,  she’s just an amazing,  giving person who I aspire to be like in so many ways.

So I’m going to rewrite my entire DMP just like I did when I started the MKMMA.

It’s funny this time I’m super excited to work on it unlike a few weeks ago when I had to change one thing!

It’s incredible how much this course has impacted my mood and attitude. Things don’t bug me like they used to and in fact,  I’m excited for things that would have annoyed me only a few weeks ago! Yes!

So instead of doing the calls, we talked about my DMP which meant the world to me! We’re doing the calls tomorrow.

All this thinking about rewriting my DMP reminds me of chapter 11 in the master keys.

It’s very interesting because I struggle with concentrating on the passage that Haanel asks us to for reasons I won’t get into here…  But I can totally concentrate on the passage which says “Faith is the substance of things hoped for,  the evidence of things not seen”.

And I enjoyed how he explained that they are the same truth expressed in different language.

When I read my DMP, when I look at my poster, when I think about my future self…  I absolutely understand that faith is a substance, not a shadow!

I’m completely in love with this whole process and who I am becoming,  which is actually more of myself!

I’m revealing myself to myself and it’s just so cool!


Week – 10 – I will persist until I succeed.

I love scroll 3! I have made VERY sloppy attempts before to go through the scrolls and I never made it past scroll 2. Also, I have never read the whole book straight through or jumped ahead to see any of the other scrolls so this is very exciting for me AND meaningful as it is about persistence and I feel a little bit triumphant having finally read this 3rd scroll!  I AM persisting, I AM succeeding!
In other news, I had an incredible realization today…. this is huge… I think … I think my brain is getting addicted to succeeding and winning and DOING IT NOW instead of whining and excuses and pity partying!
As soon as my old blueprint tries to sneak up on me, I’m immediately like OH NO YOU DON’T!!  ….. and it feels AWESOME! It feels constructive, victorious like I am learning to actually use my brain and my mind instead of letting IT take ME on a wild goose chase!
How cool is that?
This last week has been amazing! Mostly because I have connected with 5 other like-minded MKMMA participants and we’ve all been sharing and getting to know each other.
It’s really cool to get involved with others in the course for many reasons but one is because there is nothing else like this course anywhere so it’s not the easiest to explain it to others!
I’ve been here in the U.S. with my fiance and step son for almost 3 months and my hunny knows what I’ve been up to. He sees me doing all my tasks and reads and everything as well as we talk about our future together often. He’s seen my DMP, my press release and of course my enormous movie poster which is in our dining room!
He knows how important this course is to me and I’m very grateful for his support.

That being said, it’s actually even more exciting to be encouraged and inspired by others who are doing the course with just as much gusto as I am because they are right along side me!  They GET IT!
Next week I go to back to Canada to wait for the rest of our immigration process to go through… It’s always hard to leave here. This is where I feel like I am home, like I am where I belong.
At my other home in Canada I live with my mom and although we get along great most of the time,  it does come with its unique challenges, especially compounded by the fact that I am raising my young daughter there.
I wonder how my time in MKMMA will affect my relationship with my mom?
I told her that I am doing this course but I really need to have a very focused chat with her about it so that she knows exactly what to expect of me when I return.
I will be leaning on my mastermind partners big time for support as I transition back into that environment.

Aaaand I will be taping scroll 2 to my forehead! ❤

All in all an excellent week. The visualization exercise was hard for me but it was a very cool experience. Chapter 10 was full of wonderful insights for me like how weakness is just an absence of power and harmony…which is pretty obvious but hey, it was a lightbulb moment for me! I’m really looking forward to the webby tomorrow as we dive into the 2nd half of this amazing experience. ❤